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Bon JournalPractising piano all by myselfI walked down the hall listening for an empty room. The sounds of different instruments fused together like some modern piece of music. At 6 pm, I spotted a room with a beautiful Steinway grand. Somebody had just left, and I felt very lucky. I shut the double doors and closed the long curtains. I practised the difficult runs over and over again. Practice makes perfect. And I had less than 24 hours to make it perfect. Sitting in front of the ivory keys took me back in time. Alone in this room, I felt the familiarity of twenty years ago when I practised for hours in the basement of the music building. It was a place where I could escape from the rest of the world. I didn't have many responsibilities then. I was not even a music major, but I put music above all else. In front of the grand piano, I felt clarity. I felt at home. Tonight I played and played until my empty stomach cried out for attention. As I turned to get my coat, I saw myself in the mirror. Oh my goodness! Although I felt twenty years younger, I hardly looked it. What am I doing here? I can't fool these kids who are young enough to be my children! I hastily left the room out of shock and embarrassment. How could I explain that for the first time in my life, when people ask me what I do, I am content in my reply. "I am studying composition at the conservatory." Yet, there are those who dare ask, "Which greenhouse in Holland?" 9 March 2004 Tuesday |
All the time in the world to composeComposing the Suite Bussum
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